Wednesday, January 26, 2011, 11:02 AM
I wish it was not as complicated as this. I wish it was simple. It hurts when we have to deny the fact that there is something going on. Tears never fail to stream down my cheek each time i think of this. I wish everything was easy. Unfortunately it wasn't."Orang bodoh macam kau jer yang masih nak continue,"
That was the genuine comment i received from someone who cares. What can i do? I am left with no choice. It hurts, it hurts alot. Mentally i'm exhausted. For 4 semesters i have been going through this. 4 semesters which is equivalent to 2 years.
New semester is coming very soon. I don't wish to go through this suffering ever again. I don't wish to live in denial. I want something that i can be assured of. I want something that is there. Not being on the line. I had enough of those for these 2 years.
"U wana knw y... U nva trusted tht i love u so much. Always doubt wime. Thats YOU!"
- 6.18am
"Y u feel tht.. coz u nva love me all ur heart at e first place. Ur love 4 me g2 je. Org walau apepon jadi, still wana go thru. Tu baru kate u wanna go thru wimme all the way,"
- 6.26am
Where did we go wrong? What are we actually aiming for from each other? Those 2 messages i received really made me think. I believe it's not the right time for us to have this going. And if ever we cross path each other again in the future, do remember that i once loved you dearly. So much. But everything definitely has to end someday.
You know i'd catch a grenade for you. You know i'd do just anything for you. But you won't do the same, would you? Now, those hugs those kisses, they no longer mean anything.
After this, i am not really into any kind of relationship stuffs. I know by saying this, i'll hurt some hearts. But i guess, it's not the time yet. My heart is too exhausted to start afresh. Time shall decide. I'm sorry for everything.
Inna - Sorry
Sorry …
I didn't mean to make you cry
Lonely, I feel so lonely
But I need to say goodbye
So many times I tried, I tried to tell you why
Why I didn't love you when I choose to lie
Somebody else is there
Is watching you, watching you
Running from your love, your love
If I have to live my life without you
I will tell you the truth
`Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you
And somebody else will come around you one day
You will go on but she will beg you to stay
Do you believe in me?
Please do!
Bye now …
I want to find my happiness
Somehow I want to tell you
That I tried to do my best
So many times I tried, I tried to tell you why
Why I didn't love you when I choose to lie
Somebody else is there
Is watching you, watching you
Running from your love, your love
If I have to live my life without you
I will tell you the truth
`Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you
And somebody else will come around you one day
You will go on but she will beg you to stay
Do you believe ïn me?
Please do!
