When you earnestly requested for me to tell you each and every single thing, without leaving anything behind or keeping you in the dark, my mind straight away strayed to those days, the time when i was still with him.

I used to plead the boy to never keep any secrets from me. I used to have my heart broken when he kept things from me. I used to cry buckets when knowing there were things he never opened them up to me.

Hence, i should be thankful with your presence in my life. I should be glad having you by my side. With you desiring that kind of request, it's obvious that you would never, never leave me in the dark, even if it is just a small matter. Instead, i was the one who kept secrets from you. Instead i was the one who didnt open everything up to you. How irony.

When you planned those outings for me, when you effort-ly came to my block to deliver those food to me, and everything that you have done for me, those sincerities... it reminds me of those days when i was still with him. Those time how i actually contributed the whole of my time, etc specially just for him. Seeing those efforts from you, it tells me one thing.... how serious, true and sincere your affection is for me.

To think that i would want to let you go? To think that i would run away miles from you? I would never, never break your heart. Because breaking your heart simply means i'm breaking my heart too. Only that i hope you'd give me some more ample time, for me to really get my heart opened. Because up till now, it is still as obstinate as me.

Dear Army guy, (haha, the facebook people, they actually know you by this name, hee) thanks for being a good friend who never fail to be my listening ear despite sometimes, it can really break your heart. Thanks for being a good partner who's always there never fail to show me your sincere affection and true care. And most of all, thanks for being like a big brother to me, who is always there giving me all kind of advices and wise words to keep me going with life (:

No wonder there was this kind of strong feeling to get close to you when the first time i saw you, haha.

Several blogs before this but with no firmness of purpose in life, they verily mean nothing. For that, it started out the birth of this crowningtale, with an aim to start life all afresh with more attributes in life. I'm Nur'Ain Bte Ismail, by the way. 27th January every year. Currently taking up diploma in ECC over at Nanyang Polytechnic of Singapore. '91.

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I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustrations were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy