Sunday, April 3, 2011, 11:40 AM
What would you do when you are really down with heartbroken? Everything doesn't seem right, like the way you wanted it to be.
Sometimes fight would occur and things that aren't really meant to be said were hurled out. I was shattered, terribly shattered. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what's next. What i knew was, i miss everything, everything that used to be before.
Everything was expressed out through the phone. With tears running down the cheek, being accompanied by night light and those vehicles, we said out our fears, misses, loves, hatreds, misunderstandings and just everything. All emotions mixed into one. I wish everything would be back to normal. But the thing is, like glass, once it's broken, it can never be fixed, instead it'd give you that pain if you insist to mend them back together again. We tried to but what did we get in return? Suffering. Every day i tell myself, ''don't worry, tomorrow will be a better day''. I believe in that with a lot of faith in within. Unfortunately, it was left with only just a dream. About you and i.
I suggested for an over between us. I wanted you so much to say it out. So that it could get through our head, hopping that everything would be the end. But time and again, you rejected that suggestion, with a reason you can never have them said. So what do you want? We can't go on like this. You're not only hurting me, but yourself and other people around you and mine as well.
Since, it's really hard for you to say it, i shall hereby on your behalf formalize it. It is the end between us. Everything is over between you and me. It's officially GOODBYE.
Remember that first picture we took together right after our first formal presentation back then in first year? (:School is reopening soon. I don't want this to affect our studies in any way. So since there are still time before the school starts, I'm sure this is a good time for us to go through this painful rehab. In which i hope once third year arrives, everything would be back to normal. InsyaAllah.
To love is to sacrifice.
P/S: the reason to that walking home alone from work. Alhamdulillah, it did me great after which (:
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