I'm starting to miss their presence. With them, everything feels so beautiful. From the way we laugh to the the way we trudge to all places that we didn't even think of heading, lol. And i love it most when we got lost together in the middle of nowhere, hehe. Awesome much. I love them to bits. Please meet me soon, dearest girlfriends (:

Not to forget this girl too. Due to our own present life, the bond seems to drift away. Definitely we'll reunite back once again. Just wait for the day when everyone in the group is free from busy schedule, hee

Malaysia with the classmates was awesome. Will talk about it soon. School is like a place where stress and tensions subside. How great is that (:

Left with few more weeks before FYP starts. Received a message from NYP about the one month Guangzhou trip. Being shortlisted? haha Alhamdulillah. Let's see how it goes in months time, when the date is drawing nearer that is. Responsibilities and commitment are piling up. I never thought i would be in this phase. Neither have i ever dreamt of the coming. Alhamdulillah, i'm still going on good. 2 assignments added. One at Geylang while the other at Bedok. The Aljunied assignment is still ongoing. And i'm glad to see the progress he made in his science. Except for math, he needs a little more 'drilling'. Heh.

I wish i had done better during my secondary school days. It wasn't that hard. Only that i wasnt focus. My attention was elsewhere. That led me to my downfall. If only i had thought of the importance needs in my upcoming future at that point of time. However, i never regretted even a bit. With those, i became a stronger person. I learn life through the hard way. In which it struck me that Giving up is never an option. That phrase, no doubt it's cliche. But if you were to really chance upon a difficult situation, there will be a possibility that you'll surrender. You know sometimes some things for a particular reason, it's easier said than done.

I am shag. I've been keeping myself low for the past few days. I wasn't in my best mood. I felt hideous too. Probably due to the annoying eye bags. Things are left on my shoulder and I've yet to sort them out. Exams, assignments, projects, plannings, tutoring, work.... I have to cleverly divide them well. Yes, i am very shag. Sometimes i just wish that i would lie down on my bed and sleep. However, i believe even if i were to have that possibility, i would appear like a monkey jumping around and get myself scolded by ibu, lol.

I miss being free, the freedom i used to have, without having the need to think of any important stuffs. Yet, i love the tension I'm facing now. It makes me focus. It makes me feel like a real adult. At a whole, i feel important.

For the same reason, i doubt that I'd have the ability to start up a new commitment. The one that involves hearts. The one that needs sincerity. The one that involves sacrifices and everything that is needed to make it alive and going.

For the same reason too, i have to let go of any strings attached, be it in whatever form that is. Afraid that either one the hearts would break. Afraid that everything might only get worsen. Because for all i know, I'm doing this for the good of everybody.

Ayah never really like seeing me getting too involved with the opposite gender. Don't get me wrong, he has never stopped me from befriending anybody. Maybe that's the result to my extrovert character, very very outgoing. For that, i guess customer service really suits me well, LOL! But to be attached to one, i'm not encouraged to. Even at this age, 20. Probably i believe he knows i'm not even near ready. Oh well, my father knows me well. We're best friends, we're lovers, we're twins, except that he's way older and was from a different womb, haha.

I used to think so much about love, guys, romance etc but as i get older, those things didnt seem important to me. They're now secondary. Prolly because i have loved so much that i don't feel the need to search/love again. Maybe because i've already put my hope on someone that i believe if it's destined to be, it will still be one day, despite the needed separation. And all i need to instill is patience in within. And if it doesn't go the way i wanted it be, God must have other plans for me, the better and the best one that is. Yet however, i have faith in everything i believe (:

This is for now.
Be back soon with more updates (:

Several blogs before this but with no firmness of purpose in life, they verily mean nothing. For that, it started out the birth of this crowningtale, with an aim to start life all afresh with more attributes in life. I'm Nur'Ain Bte Ismail, by the way. 27th January every year. Currently taking up diploma in ECC over at Nanyang Polytechnic of Singapore. '91.

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I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustrations were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy