Friday, August 26, 2011, 10:43 PM
You know sometimes you can't force something to happen. The more you instil force in it, the more it will repel. Like magnets of the same poles.
I tried to have it attached together. I tried to see the beauty in it, like how others might have seen it. But the more i tried to, the more i feel like going away, just far far away.
I am that kind who would give my all to something i feel it's worth giving. Be it due to responsibility, priority or passion. But when neither any of them are in the list, pardon me, i am not even near interested. But when disinterestedness is in the same path as responsibility, there it goes, I'm going bonkers.
This is not about being a player. This is about my future and I'm never gonna risk it again like how I've always involve myself in. It's about time for me to foresee myself in five years time. Dee, this time, i'll heed your advice.
Seeing them, those sweethearts, some days back during Iftar, i realized we have changed alot. Everybody changed. Everything changed. Probably we have grown up so much or perhaps it has been aeons since we last met. I won't be surprised if 3-4 years down the road later, i would receive wedding invitation from them. By then they would be around 26-27? haha. How fast time flies! Somehow, i'm beginning to fear the upcoming future. Anyway, the reunion at Newton was a blast. Especially during the bowling game. Thanks Farhan for the company. And my apologies for not being able to tag along with your MCG friends for the Thurday's Iftar (:
Everything is not fixed, just like how everything is temporary. Insecurities is eating me up, i can't deny. But i shouldn't be feeling this kind of emotion in the first place. Weird.
Anyway, Sayang has always been my source of happiness. Especially waking up to her meows and her movements on my body. LOL. but really, she would just jump onto me when it's about time to Sahur. Hehe. Good alarm clock for Subuh prayers eh, hmm Good idea! :D With that, no more snoozes! No more 10 minutes procrastination from me. haha.
Having her under my care realized me of many things. I began to appreciate parents more; in the way how they bring up their children, especially those who are really as stubborn as.... me? heh. It's not easy. If i find it a little tedious trying to juggle everything; responsibilities, taking care of Sayang and everything else.... how would it be in parents' shoe then? That would be much harder. For that, to all responsible parents, SALUTES! (:
Two papers straight after Aidilfitri. And i miss my girlfriends already; Bring me to the beach can!! And we shall lie on the sand and enjoy the breeze together, pleaseeee! (: Before 5th okay! haha. Yes, this note is specially for both Fyera Weera & Nana Raven. Grr! haha.
Somebody promised to watch a movie with me, together with us skyping, right?
So please have this going..... ((:
Teehee ;)
