Saturday, October 29, 2011, 11:15 AM
Breaking up isn't that bad afterall. It all depends on individual, how they look into it. Like any other girls, definitely i felt terrible. Alhamdulillah, after the solat istikharah that night, i felt as though i was guided. My heart felt much ease. I began to think rational. Everything happens for a reason. Allah knows better.
Even if we continued, nothing good will come by. Only heartaches to us and pain to the others. For the best of us and the best of other people, letting go is the preferred choice. When we were together, we were too busy searching and concentrating on each other's love that we forgot to seek for Allah's love. This break up is actually a blessing. A blessing to search for His love. The Ar-Rahman, The Ar-Rahim. And i thank Allah for this, for this opportunity to deepen my love for Him.
Despite having a terrible 2 weeks in school, thank god i managed to finish up 1.8/4 of my work within 2 weeks. 14 weeks to go. The best point is, i'm doing it right. Initially i thought i couldnt do any bit of what was assigned and was really stressed over that project but i took it as a challenge and tadaaaa, received a compliment from the supervisor (:
Aside from love life, which i dont see any purpose and reasons to commit at the moment, there are many other stuffs i need to be responsible of. True enough, as you grow older, with bittersweet experiences you have gone through before, you'll tend to be focused especially in life matters, which consist of you and your surroundings. I have been playing so much with life all my years. Only now then i see and feel what life really is. It's no more of you being guided, but it is more of you are on your own, being responsible of many things. Imagine if you're gonna be the owner of a house.
I'm gonna get ready for the night. Someone's gonna get a blast on the week of his birthday. Anticipating the expression he'll give. Will definitely have an update on this, teehee :D
